Old San Juan Hotel

Old San Juan Hotel

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Remember, remember... Our 11th of September...



11 Sept 01.  It’s been 12 years, an eternity, an instant.  The events still don’t seem real, and in very much a fashion, they aren’t.  In an instant my generation had a moment akin to 22 Nov 63.  There are people who can tell you where they were, what they were doing, who they were with, etc.  How will my children understand this?  Will my children understand the impact?  My oldest daughter was barely a month old and not even aware of the world outside her tiny view.  My other children have never set foot in a world where there existed “the Twin Towers” outside of history books.

Terrorists, in a very real sense, sought to dismantle an American way of life and in doing so slaughtered thousands of people.  In the years since, the best men and women this country could muster up went to war and some came home, some did not.  All over this globe there are small patches of earth that are distinctly American because a soldier with the stars and stripes on their shoulder fell there.  This is not a new concept, or a new thought process.  War has been war since the dawn of time.

What is different, now, is that it is people I know, people I have loved, people whose faces are now imprinted on my mind, hiding in the dark recesses of my mind, whose ghosts come to see me at night.  These are the people who are paying the price for war.

What I would say, though, to the terrorists that purport to their ability to destroy America is this:  You can’t.  You won’t.  Because in all of the pain, intolerance, resistance that you have caused the American people; all the new laws, rules and hassles that abound, you will never be able to see inside the heart of the American spirit.

What you terrorists don’t see is that the blood of my fellow citizens flows freely and while our society has been torn up and rent inside and out, we will make it bigger, better, stronger.  We are resistant to change, but physics tell me that most things are.  But we can adapt, we can grow.  Where you see only hate, we see opportunity.  Where you see hatred, we see an opportunity for love.  Where you see an enemy I see a person to not judge.

What the terrorists of 11 Sept 01 did was bring a country together, even if only for a brief amount of time, and remind them what great things they can be capable of.  As the WBC did so recently in my city, the terrorists unified its members for the forces of good.  So while you terrorists seek to destroy and maim what we know is good, we will always rebuild and go on.  My children will grow in a world that knows about you but they will also know about the love and the greatness that this nation has to offer.

To the terrorists:  you failed.  You tried to break the American spirit and you couldn’t.  Each time you bloodied us, we got up.  Each time you jabbed at us, we punched back.  Each time you insulted us, we smiled and said, “Thank you, sir.  May I have another?”  You taught me not to hate, but rather to take all life for the precious gift it is.  You have shown me that there is still good left in my society, because when you came to our door, my brothers and sisters of this nation answered.

God / Allah / Heavenly Father, whatever name you attach to a supreme being, or don’t, is a being of love and benevolence, and it saddens me that you will never be able to realize that gift.  These last 12 years have taught me to never forget that lesson. 

To the thousands who have perished in this nation’s quest for peace, your names will ring loud in Heaven and on this day, remember those who were lost.  Share the stories so that our children never forget and that they always remember the gift we do have.


© 2013 p.hill
 

Sunday, August 25, 2013

...nightmares in color...



Chemically balanced hallucinations
     brought to life by memories no longer buried,
     past visions of what were sins
     embedded in the psyche; married

As it were.  Bound in form and shape
     as ethereal portraits, tattered canvases
     strung end to end.  Macabre film tape
     overexposed to garish glass

Statuettes of disillusionment.  Memory spark
     gives light to dim horrors
     so soon forgotten but with a careless remark
     comes back with such savage roar.

Too curious about the dead and what cannot be,
     sitting alone at a impasse, precipice,
     the mirror of time shows a reflection not of me.
     A strange face stares back, identity amiss

To the relation of the soul.  Monsters and resurrection
     dominate all thought process and function.
     God.  Damn.  It.  If only I could shun
     what seems to demand and dominate attention;

More than its fair share of my time.
     If I could push them back down
     these unsightly demons of mine
     would they weigh so heavy, an unpleasant crown

Made of thorns, of brambles and things made to prick
     causing blood to draw from unsightly wounds
     heavy on my heart like a cinder brick
     sewn  mortar with flesh, a self contained tomb.

Heavy is the heart behind the eyelids of the damned
     wishes for sanity and longing for sleep
     inside this crazed mind they now become crammed
     nothing left to do now, but lie in the dark and weep.


© 2013 p.hill

Thursday, August 22, 2013

those times we danced…



do you remember the night we danced;
the time we twirled under the moonlight?
times you held me close so that your perfume
eased its way into my nostrils…
do you remember the time that we held each under meteor showers
how the sky rained down around us as if the world were ending?
I remember that was the night we danced

do you remember the morning we woke up in each others’ arms?
how we dared not look away from each other
afraid that the image would be a dream and that we might wake
next to someone else or worse next to no one at all?
do you remember how we danced around the bed
our fingers gently touching each other in a special way
with a special purpose and intent
we fed our hunger with lust from our hearts
that morning we danced

do you remember the night we lost our way?
how we spent an endless cold night in a strange and foreign place?
that special and scary time was trying and it was true
we survived those harsh realities and persevered
do you remember how we held our hands close to one another?
afraid that if we let go, we’d be lost?
I remember it all…
that cold night we danced

through all of these years and these miles
that we have traveled together
with all the ups and the downs;
joys and the horrors that we’ve lived through
my favorite memories are of
those days and nights we danced together
with all the world watching; all eyes on you
we danced until our feet hurt; our eyes red with tears brimmed over
tears of happiness; tears of relief…  we made it…

© 2013 p.hill

Saturday, July 20, 2013

...a father's wish - verse #1...



My child little child where do you go
When your feet now touch winter’s new snow?

My child little child what do you see
When you wander so very far from me?

My child little child what clues do you leave
When you wander away and your parents now grieve?

My child little child what sights does the world show
When you are off to the places you will go?

My child little child are you scared now
When you realize you are on your own now?

My child oh my little child know this above all
I will always love you most of all…

© 2013 p.hill